My beautiful best friend, is going to be welcoming her first child into this world in less than 6 weeks! And like any new mom, the excitement of a baby shower is something that is anticipated for months. Being nearly inseparable, her excitement of the planning had become mine and I was beginning to look forward to the shower almost as much as her. Looking back I have one regret, I wish I would have opened up and talked to someone about how I was really feeling. Instead, I had to act like superwoman and pretend like it wasn't a big deal at all.
I quickly realized that I am no superwoman - not even close! Of course the stress of the shower didn't actually hit me until less than 24 hours before the baby shower. I didn't sleep the night before and woke up with major anxiety, upset stomach and swollen eyes. My emotional pain wasn't just about my unfortunate situation, I was aching for my friend who I know wanted me to be there for her. I was afraid I was being selfish for the way I was feeling. But her instant love and support, immediately discounted any of my worries.
I am again reminded of just how lucky to have such an amazing group of girlfriends in my life. They may be few, but their love and support outweighs that in numbers. I want all of you to know, just how special you are. Your encouragement, sweet spirit and friendship means so much to me. You may or may not know who you are, but you deserve to be acknowledged....
Alisha, Andrea, Christi, Jenn, Julie, Kayti & Shannon - You all have a very dear spot in my heart and I love you so much!