1 in 6 couples will struggle with infertility - that's approximately 7.3 million people. It's easy to feel removed from a subject you associate as the intriguing documentary you watch on TLC or the heartbreaking article in Women's Health Magazine. Because surely infertility would never effect me, I'm only 23! And still it's hard to believe I could be in a category that large and feel so isolated.
Writing this blog is honestly one of the most difficult things I have ever done. For those of you who know me, I am a very private person when it comes to my personal life. I am not the kind of person that divulges every detail of their life just so everyone can be in the know - I believe that some things should remain private. That being said, I am completely stepping out in faith and obedience to God.
It has been a difficult journey that we've encountered this past year. It's taken 3 doctors, 3 surgeries, and so many visits, tests and labs that I've stopped counting. All to reveal our surreal diagnosis of not being able to have children without the assistance of IVF (In Vitro Fertilization).
All my life I have put on the "My-Life-Is-Wonderful-And-Perfect" face, when in fact I can barely make it through the day without having a really good cry. The past three years has been the ultimate faith test, and to be completely transparent with you I feel as if I have failed miserably. I am so blessed to have had my wonderful husband by my side through it all. He is truly the glue that keeps us both together.
The Lord is continuing to stretch my faith with each day that passes. I know that at this moment in our lives we are meant for this season and I would be lying if I said I wasn't completely terrified. I am however excited for the outcome, because the Lord has already won the victory. and I know we will overcome!
So thus begins my journey. Knowing I am not alone is a far cry away from feeling I am not alone. Therefore I not only encourage you to share this with friends and family, but ask that you feel comfortable sharing your thoughts and stories with me as well. I look forward to getting to know all of you as you get to know me.
Writing this blog is honestly one of the most difficult things I have ever done. For those of you who know me, I am a very private person when it comes to my personal life. I am not the kind of person that divulges every detail of their life just so everyone can be in the know - I believe that some things should remain private. That being said, I am completely stepping out in faith and obedience to God.
It has been a difficult journey that we've encountered this past year. It's taken 3 doctors, 3 surgeries, and so many visits, tests and labs that I've stopped counting. All to reveal our surreal diagnosis of not being able to have children without the assistance of IVF (In Vitro Fertilization).
All my life I have put on the "My-Life-Is-Wonderful-And-Perfect" face, when in fact I can barely make it through the day without having a really good cry. The past three years has been the ultimate faith test, and to be completely transparent with you I feel as if I have failed miserably. I am so blessed to have had my wonderful husband by my side through it all. He is truly the glue that keeps us both together.
The Lord is continuing to stretch my faith with each day that passes. I know that at this moment in our lives we are meant for this season and I would be lying if I said I wasn't completely terrified. I am however excited for the outcome, because the Lord has already won the victory. and I know we will overcome!
So thus begins my journey. Knowing I am not alone is a far cry away from feeling I am not alone. Therefore I not only encourage you to share this with friends and family, but ask that you feel comfortable sharing your thoughts and stories with me as well. I look forward to getting to know all of you as you get to know me.
I am unbelievable amazed by my beautiful friend! God on display in your life is so powerful and your obedience to Him will surely point others to Him! You go girl! I'm behind you and praying for you every step of the way - love you so much!
ReplyDeleteWow Naomi, this is awesome. So happy you were able to share it. My heart has gone to the women, ESPECIALLY YOU, that is going through this...... and I believe He has His heart for people who go through what you're going through.... all the way back to 1 Samuel 1 where Hannah cried out so strongly that they thought she was drunk because she was so upset that she couldn't have a baby. And she birthed one of the most famous men in the Bible, Samuel. Again when Serah went through this, and she birthed an even greater Biblical character, Isaac.
ReplyDeleteNaomi, when your time comes, I believe your children will be STRONG leaders in the Lord. He hears your cries. I have faith Naomi and will stand for you even when you feel the weakest! Love you so much
Nomes, you are so awesome. I love how transparent you are and it really does inspire me! Your faith in God is so evident and it's something I can look to as such a good exaple. I know I will have little nieces/nephews to babysit eventually ;) Love you so much.
ReplyDeleteNaomi you and Ben someday will be able to look back on this and say do you remember when ? The faith that you two have is so apparent that one day you will have that family that you so desire.I agree that your children will be very mighty in the Lord. I cant say that i understand what your going through but what i can say is that the Lord is faithful and He has heard every prayer and collected every tear and one day your dreams of becoming a mommy will come true. Oh and im sure that when your little bundles show up you wont be able to keep kelsey and kayla away ( all start praying for you now, lol )I love you honey and i will continue praying for you guys. God bless you
ReplyDeleteI can say wholeheartedly, I appreciate your candor. You are like me, where you don't tend to divulge your emotional inner workings, but stronger, as you are letting people know, with courage and strength, the matters of your heart. I don't know if I could be as strong as you. You are an incredible person and soo deserving of a family, brimming over with children! And I do believe it will happen, in whatever way God intends. He has been with you both from the beginning and will continue with you as you walk through this journey. I just want to say thank you that you are allowing us, your friends, to actively participate with you in this, to pray and walk with you, to help share in your struggles and triumphs. Although our challenges may differ from person to person, we all can understand the feeling of confusion and hurt, and also the feeling of ecstatic joy and jubilation. And I know for one, I am here for all of it. I stand with you in faith my friend.
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